In progress 23 SEP 2022 >> Suicide Programs – Fall 2016 – personal notes & links

In 2016, two suicide programs played out – First one I was the target and when they realized they could no longer influence, they turned to my SON and that’s the second suicide program.

THIS IS THE FIRST POST – SUICIDE PROGRAM #1 – TARGET:  ME

Published 1 August 2023 >> 2016 (May to Sep) – Suicide Program #1 of 2 – Target: Lyn Champagne – V2K & Voice of God Technology?

SUICIDE PROGRAM #2 – TARGET: MY SON – October to 13 November 2016  >> 2016 (Oct to 13 Nov) – Suicide Program 2 of 2 – Target: My SON – Holograms, V2K & Voice of God Technologies

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UPDATED 23 SEPTEMBER 2022

PERSONAL NOTES and LINKS

20-21 September 2016 – 20160920-21-log-entries.pdf <– full of information.

By 21 September 2016, I realized that aircraft could imitate “ships” –  Since we were electronically monitored, I wrote them a poem entitled:  Now I know you know I know <– refer to pdf  file link above.

3, 4, 5, 6, 7 October 2016 – – “Increased visual of Flying Orbs which seemed to connect consciously.”

What did it look like? 

Although flying orbs started in Spring 2016 I started to take it seriously on 8 August 2016 >> 20160808.mp4.  I was outside, sobbing, a deep yearning to go “home” . . . doable via suicide. And it appeared 15 ft away from me – it interacted.

Here’s another kind of orb – we interacted and I got on video >> 20180428-COMIDAN-ORB-Interaction.mp4

But were they really connecting consciously . . . 

By early 2019,  I concluded there was an eye in the sky – Satellite watch – they knew when I was outside.  This is how it was possible to make it seem as if we were mentally connecting when in fact they knew when I was outside.  Man-made not off-world.

Now imagine the people who think they are connecting with off-world because something happens in the sky a few moments after they step out. To this day, I continue to send respectful acknowledgement and conveyance of wellness whenever I step outside – that it be man-made or not is irrelevant to me.  Koom-Ba-Ya  (chuckles).

BOUVIER (CSIS) was the one who planted the seed in mind when he announced in late September 2018 that we (Mark and I) could consciously call up Drones and Helicopters – We were made to believe they were for our protection.  At the time, I saw it as a hairy-fairy statement to make – why would BOUVIER (CSIS) say that?  I had never mentioned the orange-amber dots “star-like” nor about the flying orbs “fluorescent tennis ball” spheres which appeared within a minute of stepping outside.

But BOUVIER (CSIS) was alluding to black helicopters and drones.  And that really didn’t make sense unless . . . we had an eye in sky on the house – seen when we were  outside – so the sudden appearance of “either-or” very likely relied on a satellite watch just like the drones and helicopters.

Drones & helicopters would appear a few minutes after stepping outside from mid-September 2018 to February 2019.  I always wondered how could they be so quick to show up – Always in the vicinity?  In early February 2019, I walked in the Rockland police station and that’s when I discovered they were not for our protection, click here.  I had been put on a watch list and entered in police criminal databases as a non-investigative subject . . . something like that.

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By early October 2016, my son began to experience demonic looking holograms – 3d pixar cartoonish texture.

By mid-November 2016, he was spiritually, emotionally, mentally and physically tired, worn out and seriously considered suicide as means of escape.

If my child committed suicide, chances were I would fall to pieces perhaps consider suicide? <– their rationale and what they had pushed onto me from June to early October 2016.  Until they realized it didn’t work on me anymore.

Why did it become ineffective to push for my suicide?

11-14 September 2016, I had a profound experience which I came to call “The Knowing”.

The mid-September 2016 experience permanently removed deep rooted emotions of Unloved, Abandonment and Loneliness which I carried since 26 July 1962 (age 3, 1 week) and “Loneliness” since age 5. 

Both experiences at early age, had nothing to do with being traumatized by humans (e.g. parents for example) but rather a sense of being dumped ‘abandoned” here -> forced incarnation in a human vessel against my will <– therefore the deep rooted sense of abandonment and unloved.

The Knowing was a life changing experience – a game changer.  And here we are 6 years later.

How did I realize they were pushing for my suicide?  Because by the end September / early October 2016, the thought would come to mind out of the blue but I didn’t feel it – it was like implanted “power of suggestion”.  The thought wasn’t mine, I know the difference, that’s how I knew.

Whereas before mid-September 2016, when the thought would appear, I would  “involuntarily” long emotionally to go home – but where was home?  Not “here” only way to go home was via death “suicide”.

They realized it didn’t work anymore and dropped me and turned to oppress my son by freaking him out with demonic holograms.

Let’s start at 16 OCTOBER 2016 . . . .

My son called me just to talk – this conversation was intercepted and my son became the number one target.

. . . He said about two weeks ago, he was having a nice day, good mood – As he was walking, he suddenly heard “Your mother is dead” – It messed him up for the rest of the day . . .

What I didn’t tell my son >> for the past two weeks, the thought-form of  “you should commit
suicide” kept surfacing but had no effect on me (anymore).

I wrote it in my handwritten log entries but I didn’t tell him over the phone – it would have been too disturbing and difficult to explain that the thought wasn’t mine  . . . but that it no longer carried the emotional baggage of “wanting to commit suicide“.

LOG ENTRY for 16 OCTOBER 2016, (2 pdf slides) click here

LOG ENTRY for 15 OCTOBER 2016, (1 slide), click here

On 15 & 16 October 2016, I felt attacked “oppressive energy” – someone/something was angry at me.

For a long time, I  thought the oppression to my son had started after 25 October 2016 – WHY?  because that’s the day Mark called MICHELLE GUERTIN for legal help with his share from the LAVERGNE Estate – why did he call her?  because his family had been dangling he had a large share coming from the Estate since late 2012 – For the past four years, the family on a bi-weekly basis, dished out updates when the share would be released – dates, excuses, extended dates, story-lies, new dates, etc.

And who best than the mother of his SON to provide legal help, right?  Ye-es the fake SON – even Mark’s mother carried with the fake father-son cover when she asked Mark “why did you call her??”  Mark responded >> “because she’s the mother of my son, Mom!!” – Theresa Lavergne (Mark’s mother) didn’t bat an eye.

After calling GUERTIN,  we didn’t hear from her for several weeks – THEN suddenly she came in contact a few days after 13 November 2016 << an important date in this whole story.  That the day, they immediately ceased oppressing my son – POOF! Stopped.  Then GUERTIN comes out of the woodwork.  I will strongly venture they were sitting back waiting for the demise of my son and my demise as chain reaction.

From this point forward (October 2016) my son went in a downward spiral as he started to see projections of ugly beings who had the quality of PIXAR 3D animation – since he’s a reborn Christian, he began to try to banish them in the name of Jesus – the projection would disappear only to have another one re-appear, then he would banish again, they disappeared and re-appeared again – and most often as he was battling what he couldn’t control, projections of Jesus and angels would appear sitting in the background “doing nothing to stop it”. 

OF COURSE NOT!  BECAUSE IT WAS MAN-MADE USING HOLOGRAM TECHNOLOGY. This went on for over 6 weeks.  How they mocked, waiting for his meltdown to suicide.  pure evil.

He started to sound like a fundamentalist preacher / exorcist / witch-hunter. At the end of his wit and on brink of killing himself by 12-13 November 2016.

I WILL STRONGLY SAY, MICHELLE GUERTIN & NEW PARTNER were expecting that my son would kill himself and they were waiting for that to happen.  But then I sent a very detailed email to Parkes on 13 NOVEMBER 2016 describing the situation, asking for help –

Soon after sending the email, the OPPRESSION onto my SON (for past 6 weeks) IMMEDIATELY CEASED.

I believe it was the content of the email “too much information” beyond my SON’s situation  might also have been the trigger to change tactics for the Grab Mark Smith operation – this is when they began to consider using me as KILL BAIT to get Mark Smith. 

The strategic plan changed . . . forget suicide let’s do it another way >> Get him to kill her – Re-introduce the SON in his life “he will listen to his son” – by doing it that way, he will come running to MICHELLE GUERTIN, the mother of his child “fake son” Anton Guertin <– MARK TRUSTED THEM 100%.

DEMON-FEM MICHELLE GUERTIN CONTACTED MARK SOON AFTER 13 NOVEMBER 2016.

IF WAS AS IF THEY WERE WAITING FOR MY SON TO KILL HIMSELF.  THAT”S WHY SHE WAITED AND DIDN’T CALL BACK SOON AFTER MARK HAD CONTACTED HER on 25 OCTOBER 2016.

IMAGINE >> JUST LISTENING IN AND SITTING BACK WAITING FOR PEOPLE TO COMMIT SUICIDE.

PSYCHOPATHS FROM HELL.  NO REGARDS FOR LIFE OTHER THAN THEIR DIRTY DEMONIC ARSES.  PURE EVIL.

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A year later (same time period) >> 12 October 2017 – They tried to remove me by luring me away  – The dude was very confident he would succeed but it failed and he even showed being dismayed – I bet he doesn’t fail very often.

I would see him again on 18 April 2018 and discovered he worked for CSIS.  In October 2017, he was impersonating being from Secret Space Program (SSP) >> 12 October 2017 – First Encounter with an Individual >> “Lure to his vehicle” | APRIL 2018 Discovery -> Individual is from CSIS

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